> But I cannot know what sound is really like, because I have no memory of normal hearing.

and

> I was born with normal hearing. I began losing my hearing in childhood ... After I was registered, I started wearing hearing aids. People's voices became clear, and for a few months things were good. ... A specialist told me that I badly needed cochlear implant surgery, but I hesitated because it was very expensive.

I'm confused what's going on here.

I was born with normal hearing and acquired language while I still had it. But now, no matter how hard I try to think back, I can’t remember what things sounded like back then. I know that people’s voices sounded clear, but at this point, that’s merely a semantic memory. The sound itself, the actual sensory experience of it, is something I can’t fully recall.

They remember the narrative of the order of events but not the subjective experience of normal hearing. Quite common for all kinds of experiences, because stories are culturally held.

They might be speaking from the memories of their family members rather than their own.

I guess it's childhood amnesia[1].

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Childhood_amnesia

They might have started losing it at an early stage of their childhood.

My wife lost hearing before she turned 2. There's plenty of space between being born and forming permanent memories.

He explained that he doesn't read/write English. I do find some of the wording strange. However, the paragraphs and overall structure doesn't feel at all like AI slop. YMMV.

Sorry about that. Korean and English are very different languages, so I think some things got lost in translation. I completely understand the AI slop concern, and I take that kind of criticism seriously.

> What is it like to hear vocal folds vibrate?

I wouldn't normally describe hearing a voice as hearing "vibrations". Vibrations are indeed the physical basis of sound, and the auditory system detects changes in air pressure caused by them. But vibrations can also be perceived through touch, and the subjective experience of hearing is quite different from the tactile sensation of feeling something vibrate. When talking about feeling vibrations, I usually think of the touching sensation.

Still, both sensations originate from the same physical phenomenon. You can try to feel your own vocal chords vibrate by placing your fingers on your throat while humming. It's certainly a very different sensation, and touch generally conveys fewer acoustic details than typical hearing, but you're sensing the same underlying physical event.

One interesting example is Dani Valeska (Instagram: @daniivaleska), a Brazilian Sign Language interpreter whose husband is deaf (I couldn't find his name). She shares content about their experiences, and I remember seeing a video in which her husband used the vibrations of her voice, felt by touching her throat, to reproduce what she was saying. This resembles a technique called "tactiling", which has been studied as a tactile aid to speechreading (https://researchers.mq.edu.au/en/publications/tactiling-a-usable-support-system-for-speechreading/).

Supposedly, the deaf-blind Helen Keller learned to speak clearly in the same way.

The essay is a little odd because the author mentioned that she was born with normal hearing.

When I was very young, I had normal hearing, but I don’t remember any of the sounds I heard back then. I think I lost my hearing around first grade, which in Korea is around age seven. Until then, my hearing was normal, and that’s when I learned to speak. But these are such early childhood memories that I can’t really be sure. What did everything sound like back then...? I don’t know.

(Sorry if my last post seemed to have some mistakes. I was tired yesterday and didn’t review it carefully, so there were a few contradictions. I’m trying my best to write as accurately as possible)

Sounds like you might have auditory aphantasia. How's your minds eye?

That’s where I was lost too. Maybe very young and has no memories?

The vocal vibrate primarily because of the Bernoulli effect and the over pressure of the lungs. Just vibrations alone, called the voice sources, carries almost none of the information that we use in speech. That information arises as the pressure wave goes up through the larynx tube and into the mouth (or up the nose in the case of nasals). It is possible to measure just the voice source by means of a laryngograph.

ENT surgeon who has bilateral CIs and has been in the research field for 20+ years. This sort of stuff is cool, but there are lots of limitations at the auditory nerve interface that limits improvements to speech and music processing strategies. Crazily enough, many of these studies were done in the 1960s to 1990s and are still valid today. There are strategies that can help at individual level, but do not help everyone. Thus they have not made it to clinical use.

I am deeply grateful for your words. It has been just over a year since I received my cochlear implant. Thanks to you, I learned for the first time today that this methodology is not yet mature enough to be used in clinical practice. I started this because I wanted to understand the sounds of the world I now hear, but there is still so much I don't know. That is why I am actively participating in and collaborating on cochlear implant research in Korea as much as I can. I also sincerely thank you for your dedication to advancing science.

I have history of hearing losss and a more recent episode of bilateral SSHL post viral infection with relatively decent recovery. I am left me with deficient sloping loss in the high frequencies 50-60 db. I wonder if the day will come when I will need CI. So far I can manage but since medically no doc is able to point out the cause of the loss I’m starting to familiarize myself with them. I hope progress is being made on CI front and the regenerative one as well

Thanks for posting. If you have time to write some more thoughts on those limits and individual strategies I'm sure it would be interesting to many of us here.

Software like Voicemod transforms speaking voice into a bright, robotic, or Miku-inspired digital idol tone in real time. I wonder if this would help in hearing and understanding speech better.

> Voicemod

> Miku

Interestingly, the same researcher in charge of the VOCALOID software is now in charge of research for Voicemod.

This is an intriguing proposal. In my experience, however, Hatsune Miku's pronunciation is not clearly intelligible upon first hearing one of her songs. The words become distinct only when I read along with the romanized lyrics. With repeated exposure to the same song, I am eventually able to understand it without the lyrics; however, I would argue that this reflects top-down prediction grounded in memory rather than any increase in the clarity of the sound itself. This is analogous to the phenomenon of sine-wave speech, in which sounds initially perceived as meaningless whistles or electronic tones are suddenly heard as clear, intelligible speech once the listener has been shown what is being said.

Their GitHub repo with all of their data is here: https://github.com/mi-rae-lab/ci-psychophysics-data

Probably one of the best uses of AI that I've seen so far.

Have you reached out to your doctors to see if your implant mapping could be adjusted and improved?

Yes, I have. For a whole year, I asked about it at every mapping session. But no matter how many times my cochlear implant was remapped, there wasn't much improvement. I still don't know whether the cause lies in my auditory nerve (peripheral) or in how my brain processes sound (central), or something else entirely. I told my audiologist that speech sounds blurred, and I also brought it up with my doctor, but nothing really improved.

Do you know if your loss is due to damage to the inner ear or something deeper in the chain?

I'm realizing what an utterly wild English language word "psychophysics" is for new learners. It's so many conflicting sounds and rules in one.

Pretty much all of the difficulty arises from the transliteration of Greek ψ, υ, χ, and φ, and then inconsistent pronunciations of these letters themselves in loanwords (including pronouncing υ as both /aɪ/ and /ɪ/)!

That's not to say that it's not very tricky, just that the difficulty kind of arises from one core reason.

Edit: OK, one s as /s/ after the c and another s as /z/ between vowels is also tricky and doesn't have to do with Greek.

> OK, one s as /s/ after the c and another s as /z/ between vowels is also tricky and doesn't have to do with Greek.

The English plural suffix follows a standard pattern:

It’s voiced (/z/) after voiced sounds and voiceless (/s/) after voiceless sounds. That’s why it shows up as /s/ at the end of “physics” (/fɪzɪks/). /k/ is voiceless.

The -ics ending of physics comes from a plural.

No helpful pattern underlying the middle “s” unfortunately.

Yes, there's a general voicing assimilation to the preceding phoneme for both -s and -ed! (plus an additional epenthetic vowel insertion if the suffix consonant is too similar to a preceding consonant) It took me a long time to learn this because I am a native speaker and did it automatically without thinking or initially without even noticing that it was realized differently in different contexts in the first place. It's a really fun example of how we can do fieldwork on ourselves (gather a lot of data and try to derive the rule).

Author here. I'm Korean, and I have cochlear implants in both ears, which I received in a clinical trial in 2025. No one could tell me what I actually hear, so between 11 October and 4 November 2026 I ran seven psychophysical tests on myself (10,992 trials), using browser test apps that Claude built for me. I'm an amateur, so there are surely mistakes, and corrections are very welcome.

All trial-level data, the analysis code and Lean 4 checks of the apps' logic are on GitHub (non-commercial licenses): https://github.com/mi-rae-lab/ci-psychophysics-data

I do not speak English. The page was translated with Claude, and I will use AI to read and answer replies, so my answers may be slow.

This is my first time visiting Hacker News, and my first post here. I don't know the culture here well yet, but I deeply respect it and support it.

It is past 1 a.m. here in Korea and I am very tired, so I need to get some sleep. I will check back around 9:30 a.m. Korean time (00:30 UTC).

Could you try taking a musical track and doing a low-pass filter to remove anything above 100 hz? If it doesn't sound about the same to you, then that is proof that you are hearing and processing some sound above that 70 hz limit. The inability to distinguish speech sounds more like trouble with higher frequencies (which help discriminate between different syllables) than with frequencies in the 100-400 hz range typical of human speaking f0s - because the latter are also vital to what tends to make music sound full and rich.

A sort of anti HN comment to say but very interesting reading, I don’t know if I have answers to any of your questions but thank you for sharing, I will read more and consider it.

Thank you, I really appreciate you taking the time to read it. Even without answers, kind words like this mean a lot to me.

Pretty fascinating read up!

I always told myself I would try and do some fun things with my cochlear implant (Med-El Sonnet) but I never did so reading this was like dusting off some old thoughts of mine.

I was the same, I was born relatively hearing, but started to lose it rapidly - due to a mitochondrial disease (mutation A7445G) which is very rare, but is in a few families around the world. I wore hearing aids for most of my childhood and then got the implant when I was mid 20s.

I've heard a lot of your complaints from others. My sister for example, didn't have a great journey, and even today she reckons everything is still robotic sounding. She however went with a Cochlear Nucleus system, and I was the only one in 30+ people in extended family to go with Med-El (because I liked their tech better) and it's always sounded crisp and clear to me.

I'd have liked to have gotten two, but I was only funded for one - plays havoc with directional hearing. You could have 50 people turn towards a sound, and then there's me turning the opposite direction! :)

I'd be really keen to know if you have any other experiments planned.

> I'd have liked to have gotten two, but I was only funded for one

How much do these cost?

I don't have any other experiments planned yet. I'm still thinking hard about what to do next, and honestly, I'm not sure what kind of tests I should try.

Have you tried listening to chiptune, MIDI, or electronica music? I am congenitally hearing-impaired myself and also enjoyed Vocaloid, although I had never wondered about a connection before. I've sometimes thought that when Vocaloid producers don't try for realism but go for simpler easier 'purer' Vocaloid voices, it sounded like chiptune/MIDI/electronic. So those might be an interesting musical control group.

I haven't listened to much chiptune, MIDI, or electronica, so I'm not very familiar with them. But after hearing about your experience, I think I should look them up and give them a listen. Thank you for the great suggestion.

Thanks for the writeup! It's fascinating that you can hook yourself up to a PC and get music played directly into your implant. I wonder what would happen if you shift all frequencies in a song (or PC microphone capture) into a much smaller range, proportinally? And then test some target ranges. Or you could slow down a song but keep all the frequencies?

AI can write such programs quickly.

Thank you for sharing this. It is all very interesting, and I hope you are able to find out more and experience even more sounds with your implants you do. I would be very interested in being able to experience the tests myself. There are a lot of descriptions of what is being done with the audio, but I have no real intuition as to what any of it actually means. The github repo seems to only have the data in it, and not the tests themselves. Though I could certainly be missing them as well. Including the tracks, or code used the generate the tracks, would be nice.

Thank you so much for your kind words and for taking a close look at the repo. You’re right, it currently only contains the data, not the tests or the tracks themselves. I’m really sorry about that. I work a full-time job, so I can’t upload them right away, but I will add the test tracks and the code used to generate them later.

This was beautiful to read. Thank you for writing it! Don’t worry about it reading like slop - your voice comes through very distinctly to me.

You mention a lot of ethics concerns; I am totally uneducated on medical ethics but I think those are pretty important questions. It doesn’t sound like you’ve had a lot of support from this startup.

I might suggest to you that you publish this on a website - GitHub pages comes to mind as something Claude or codex could do for you easily - it would let you segment this information in a way that someone who wanted to help with the medical questions could get right to that stuff, and someone who wanted to help with ethics could also jump to what they were interested in.

Either way, thank you for the write up! Your curious and open attitude is lovely.

I don't do programming myself, but I'll look into GitHub Pages. I'm deeply grateful for your advice. I've been making clear and repeated requests to the startup, but for some reason, they haven't accepted them for a whole year, and I honestly feel so sad about it.

I'm glad to hear you discuss listening to music. There's no doubt it will sound different to you, but still well worth enjoying. My best wishes to you for an interesting, and I hope exciting time in your life.

Thank you so much. Speech sounds muffled and blurry to me, but music always sounds so beautiful and lovely. It truly is beautiful. I hope you also have many happy moments listening to beautiful music.

This is interesting and I'm going to write out my thoughts for you here. Just some impressions.

Right off the bat after skimming this I'm caught up with a detail that you confirm multiple times - that you can tell literally nothing apart given any input over 70 hz. You have had this measured a few times and you definitely say that nothing is coming across above 70 hz.

Yet you are trying to hear all sorts of things that have most all of their information content above 70hz.

The Hatsune Miku music? You're hearing the bass and the kick drums and maybe some subharmonics generated in the reverberation of the higher stuff. But that is a tiny fraction of the music, and, I hate to tell you this, but that computer girl singing is all way, waaay up higher than 70hz. The beautiful sounds you are getting across are the cool synth basses of all that music. It's very modern, punchy music and the bass of that type of electronic music is very different from other classical music so whatever modulation your implants are doing to it from 70 hz down likely sounds very cool compared to a lot of other music, for sure.

But, stop- you're getting nothing by noise and wind sounds with no information differentiation over 70hz because your brain isn't demodulating that information, maybe due to something about how the implant was... implanted... or just your specific condition, who knows, but what you can do is work in the band you have.

You mention not getting human voices because the fundamentals of human voices are more than 2x where your cutoff is.

Have you tried using a program like Audacity - or - Get claude to write a script for you that takes in MP3's of modern music and slows them down 300-400 %. The music will be very slow, but it will shift instruments from higher up (pianos, horns, people's signing) down into the 20-70 hz range, and you will maybe hear patterns that are new. Did no one in the study post-op sit with you and go thru this kind of thing? You have all these external trials listed but most all of it is moot if everything above 70hz is missing and you aren't able to modify the modulator hardware.

Note that the type of rhythms in the bass of the bass synthesizers of that Hatsune Miku tracks are different that the more complex rhythms and melodies played by instruments higher up (like pianos and lead synths). (This is true for most all music genres...) Shifting those higher up things down in frequency, even if that means they play back slower, may give you an different musical experience.

Continuously pegging your implant modulation hardware with frequency content above 70hz attempting to discover something about how it interacts with your brain when you continuously get nothing but broadband noise over 70hz seems like a dead end exercise.

I mean hell, have you tried putting a low pass filter to block out on everything in the music/microphone input above 70hz just to make sure that information isn't somehow overloading the way the implant works with your brain, and maybe just causing confusion.

Lastly it sounds like you could benefit from talking with someone with a real audio / digital signals processing / electrical engineering background that can inspect your hardware directly and make suggestions because educating yourself with just GPT runs might be spinning you in circles.

For instance... you mention things like " The logic of my test apps, which generate the test sounds and move the staircases, was checked with the Lean 4 formal verifier,"

Man... this has nothing to do with needing a 'Lean 4 formal verifier' to check your app or whatever. You need someone to sit with you and your damn hardware and work with some audio input. You need the someone that setup the original implant modular to explain the hardware mapping and filtering options to you and see if you can go back and change how that works, to get more options. You're getting some wildly mixed signals (bad pun) about how all this works, I think.

> Have you tried using a program like Audacity - or - Get claude to write a script for you that takes in MP3's of modern music and slows them down 300-400 %. The music will be very slow, but it will shift instruments from higher up (pianos, horns, people's signing) down into the 20-70 hz range, and you will maybe hear patterns that are new

You don't need to slow them down, you can just pitch shift everything into the 0-70 hz range. If there were a way to figure out how his brain is demodulating the signal, you might even get something pretty reasonable out - the essay describes sounds like cars as hissy rather than heavy.

The real difficulty is keeping genuinely inaudible frequencies (<40 hz? but who knows how his implant works) from swamping the rest, I would think.

I think there's a misreading at the root of this. The "70 Hz" in the post is the modulation rate from the TMTF, not an audio frequency. The TMTF measures how fast loudness can flutter before the flutter is undetectable. It isn't a pitch or discrimination test. From the post, OP does discriminate, somewhat, above 70 Hz and says they can't judge pitch direction at all, so there is no 20–70 Hz "working band" to retreat into.

I agree with the broader instinct that OP deserves a clinician to help with the hardware side (having their map and device parameters alone would go a long way), but it seems OP is taking any step they can towards this effort.

I regret that I don't have anything to actually add towards helping OP. Their posture towards understanding is refreshing and the Lean bit reads to me more as a cute testament to that than anything eerie or strange.

> ... maybe OP is confused about how the audio spectrum works in general then, because they themselves talk about this 70hz shelf in the same breath as human vocal ranges etc -- that isn't amplitude modulation frequency.

In a CI, voice pitch actually _does_ arrive as amplitude modulation at the F0 rate. The processor keeps only each channel's envelope, and the harmonics of a voice that share a channel beat against each other at F0. So a 70 Hz flutter ceiling and vocal ranges do belong in the same breath.

> ... so I was confused at how someone could say they 'don't hear anything above 70hz' and yet can somehow hear 'noise' at '2000 hz'. But it is dawning on me that the implant / associated driver hardware may simply be 'saturating' ...

The TMTF carrier was noise by design, so above 70 Hz the flutter vanished and the noise that was already there is all that's left. No saturation is needed to explain it. The “wind” in SRD is what a spectral ripple sounds like through limited spectral resolution. This is a resolution problem, not a level problem.

> The exposition is strange and again that could just be the translation and writing style...

This paragraph was why I initially made a comment. They were radically honest with their methodology and obviously living inside the problem. OP is actually reading this thread, for what it's worth.

Thank you for pointing out that the 70 Hz is a modulation rate, not an audio frequency. That's exactly right. I wish I could find someone in Korea to help me with the hardware side, but no matter how hard I've tried to persuade people, I've mostly been ignored. As for the Lean part, I wasn't sure whether it was really necessary. I've never been part of academia, so I'm still very clumsy and amateurish at this. Even so, I'll keep doing my best to find someone who can help with the hardware side. Thank you for your kind words.

That is definitely the weirdest part to me. It is supposed to be a trial for this new implant right? So why isn't the company actually working with them on it? Like how is just telling someone do more therapy acceptable here? Studying their brain's reactions to the stimulus the implant is actually generating seems like something that should have already been done.

I would think you could take the audio processor out of the loop and run diagnostics on the implant itself using an EEG to determine how the brain is responding. They test the hearing of newborns with the tech, you don't need to "trust" a person or even need them to be able to communicate. Its right there in the data.

Based on my read of everything it feels like there is some issue with the implant sending electrical signals, but the nerve not actually picking them up and sending them on. Perhaps related to the original reason for the hearing loss. And the company should want to dig info it more. I know I would if it were my tech.

I pleaded with the cochlear implant company to do research, telling them I desperately wanted to know exactly how I hear, but unfortunately, the only answer I got was that it would be difficult. It makes me feel so sad and helpless.

I was tired yesterday, and I have very little experience writing, so I fully respect the criticism that the post feels messy and strange. I think some parts were accidentally lost in the translation process. As you said, I don't have a single person around me who can help with this, so I've been relying on AI. But I'm consciously keeping myself grounded so that I don't fall into anything like AI psychosis. I'm sorry that the post wasn't better written.

I think the presentation of the whole situation was just a bit jarring to me because it is a wild combination of topic (the hearing implant) coupled with the fact you had to translate (can always be difficult with such a technical topic) while using AI to summarize and edit your entire investigation, published as a Claude artifact - we're really seeing a new kind of blogging here, and that for sure caught me off guard.

I see your situation more clearly after re-reading and also seeing your new responses here in these threads.

I think if you write more on this topic, especially more about your history of hearing and what you can in fact perceive, and publish more on the internet, you will find people who are very interested in this kind of topic - it is something that will 'nerd snipe' many tech minded people - and I am sure you could absolutely make friends in Korea who are interested to help. Having someone with an audiology background, or even a student in neurology who knows their way around audio signals processing / has a DSP / EE background etc. sit in with you for some experiments as you use the line input for you device - someone who also hears what the input is, and can talk with you about it - would be invaluable and could also be a fun social connection- maybe university students, etc. If I spoke Korean and lived in your city I would definitely find it fascinating to try and help out.

Thank you, this is something I'm learning for the first time in my life. I think I should definitely try it on my day off.

I would also be very curious about taking the music, and slicing it into different frequency ranges. And playing each of the ranges independently. A tone on its own may be perceived differently than a wider range of frequencies combined. Especially when there is a black box audio processor in the middle. Perhaps it is filtering out those consistent tones in some way to minimize the "noise" and keep just what it thinks is the signal. Like built in noise canceling headphones.

I also think there are some relatively cheap options for getting or building a simple EEG. At least in the US, I don't know about Korea. Which could allow for some more interesting tests. Let it play various sounds and tones while recording with no visual stimulus to go with it, and see how they correspond to the EEG data.

I understood that they are able to hear pure base tones at higher frequencies. But once they are modulated quicker than 70 Hz (implant electrodes are switched more quickly than that) then it turns into white noise. That would fit with the "all voices are the same" description where everything is reduced to base frequency, without harmonics.

Yeah, ordinary hearing is normally quoted as 20Hz to 20kHz, but most people are hearing mostly between 2000 to 5000Hz. If truly there was no perception above 70Hz that would lead to a very muddy and indistinguishable soundscape.

Wikipedia is not bad on the subject: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hearing_range

> most people are hearing mostly between 2000 to 5000Hz

That's pretty misleading, we tend to have excellent hearing anywhere in the 100 hz - 6000 hz range. Much of music and all fundamental frequencies produced by the human voice (except people with very rare whistle register abilities) is below 2000 hz. We're most sensitive to the range you're talking about because it's the most useful for discriminating between different sounds, but still only slightly more sensitive to that range than to lower frequencies.

You should just frequency shift, not slow things down. Maintaining a train of thought trying to understand what someone is saying becomes very difficult when it is slowed down.

Wow what a thorough analysis, thanks! Admittedly, I'm not sure how to translate the numbers to audio. AI helped me find these websites:

https://hzgenerator.com/sweep-generator

https://onlinetonegenerator.com/frequency-sweep-generator.html

A looping 10 to 70 Hz sweep got the best result with my 20+ year old Apple sound sticks because they have a subwoofer.

With typical hearing, it sounds like almost a dozen distinct frequencies to me. Higher frequencies are just a matter of degree, they aren't qualitatively different IMHO. But I'm not musically inclined, and only have synesthesia when I sort of see color in various gray patterns on the computer screen, which look more blue or whatever sometimes, so I'm sure someone will disagree with me because they sense feelings in audio that I don't.

I'd bet that improvements in technology over the next few years (especially with the help of AI) might get the upper end to perhaps 100 Hz or more, where it begins to sound more like a tone than a hum. Loosely, a beat (like a drum) sounds like perhaps 10 to 20 Hz. A hum sounds like 60 Hz (like electricity). Also I wonder if a cochlear implant can hear below 10 Hz because it's electrical stimulation instead of physical, to maybe hear frequencies that typical hearing can't? But I don't know.

I'm fascinated by this stuff, because sometime in the next 5-10 years we'll get direct digital signal to nerve implants. That could allow people to hear above 20 kHz (like a dog) or even restore smell in people who have had it diminished due to illness or injury.

Many people can see ultraviolet light after getting cataract surgery, which supposedly looks like a blacklight but more blue because there is a little rise in the red visual receptor the overlaps blue to make violet. So technically the blue receptor ends up being a violet receptor because red isn't removed normally. Which means that violet and purple are different colors, because the visual cortex makes sense of them differently at opposite ends of the spectrum based on how much green is present. Of course all of those distinctions may go away when someday the visual nerves can be stimulated directly with an implant and make color more of a continuous spectrum like sound, rather than having distinct color bands like in a rainbow.

Subjectively, I've noticed when I wake up in the morning that the ceiling has grey and yellow splotches, because we have fewer blue receptors in the fovea at the center of the eye, and they haven't adjusted yet. Also at dusk, the rods begin to sense more, so the world fades from color to cyan and then gray. I feel like similar things might happen with audio, because I feel like I can hear better when I'm camping, especially in the morning, but I don't know why.

There are interesting experiments where they put goggles on chickens to flip the world upside down. After 2 weeks, the chickens saw normally again due to neuroplasticity. Then when they took the goggles off, the chickens walked goofy until their brains readjusted.

Also I've read that lion's mane mushrooms regrow neural connections and may even increase neuron synthesis. I've had neurological injuries due living a rough and tumble life that seemed to have healed somewhat after drinking mushroom coffee for a few weeks. Also magic mushrooms scramble nerve connections and let them reestablish themselves, sort of like starting over with a blank slate in neural networks. Mushroom medicine research has been blocked by a century of ignorant legislation, so people have missed out on spiritual healing that strays outside of what science can explain. I think of a brain or neural net as an antenna that resonates with the consciousness field, which is some sort of 5D-like field that transcends our normal 4D spacetime (otherwise it would be a frozen crystal with no observer or passage of time). When our brains get rewired after learning/trauma/injury/illness/healing, our attention shifts to different things, which alters our subjective experience. Meaning that in a very real sense we perceive the world differently and/or feel like we've shifted to a different (often better) timeline. Plant medicines and spiritual practices may allow changes to subjective experience that science can't yet talk about.

Anyway, not sure what point I'm trying to make here with these breadcrumbs, other than that the future isn't written yet, and in fact there are infinite futures, which I believe free will allows us to choose. So there is always hope and a reason to keep going.

You clearly have the hacker mindset (compliment). I hope your investigations are fruitful, for yourself and others who may learn from your experiences!

Thank you. Your compliment really encourages me. This is something I had always been thinking about, and I feel I was able to make it happen with the help of AI. But I still have a lot to learn, so I welcome criticism too. Even so, your kind words mean a lot to me.

This did not read like slop and was fascinating to look through. I hope you and the ENT doctor in the thread can have a nice conversation after this.

Thank you, I really appreciate your comment. I've never really studied English, so I needed help from an AI translator. Because of that, I was very worried even before posting. Thank you for your encouragement.

>Those of you who hear the world in three dimensions would know the answer, but am I hearing a flat plane?

You typically should feel sound as a 3d point, it maps roughly to the same sensory system that maps light or touch direction. Loud noise would feel as directional and material as bright sun or strong poke to a head. (Brain does this mapping transparently based on the small difference of time it takes the sound to reach your ears.) Sometimes the sound is not clear, you would either hear from a vague direction or with no direction channel provided from your brain at all.

> the small difference of time it takes the sound to reach your ears.

The science behind Head Related Transform Functions [0] is fascinating, and includes additional tricks. For example, the shaped fleshy bits of your ears modify incoming sound differently depending on the direction, so that the noise from "up and in front" has a signature which differs from "down and behind". There's also a component that comes from sound traveling through your head, where traveling through the front is different than traveling though the back.

I particularly remember this because long ago I had an Aureal A3D [1] sound-card which made great positional sound (over headphones) by simulating HRTFs and sound-reflection off of game-world geometry. Unfortunately they were sued into bankruptcy by Creative, whose EAX technology was much less-impressive.

[0] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Head-related_transfer_function

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aureal_Semiconductor#A3D